well, yudhi was born on 22 may 2003. it was a very special day for both shizu and me. writing about it today, after so many years, i am sure i may not be able to relate my actual experience that time but suffice it to say that it was something close to something life changing. to see how nature carves out another beautiful form from a form...to witness how a mother separates a part of her flesh and blood. what a woman might feel, i don't even want to try and feel. it's not in us, men, to know what they, women, go through. they need to go through all that because they are built to, they are structured that way. and perhaps they don't even expect us to know. but if at all we can try to understand that it is an uphill task, that not all of them know what to expect, not all of them are prepared, not all have had any training to deal with...it would be easier for both partners to cope with the life after The Birth.
six-day-old yudhi gets a peck outside indian high commssion in singapore on grange road
for us too, it was like that. we saw each other and learnt. i made mistakes...in hindsight, i was a bit stupid to have behaved the way did sometimes but then even if i have realised it later - today - i don't feel guilty. i am happy that she stood by me and helped me learn the ropes, climb the ladder.
thank you darling!
